lessons for today...

My colleague Alvin Tan, quietly listens and always manages to effectively and quickly generate the required solution.

He still amazes me, what took me 2 months to get started took him 2 days to create Eclipse plugin.

Another colleague YongPing, listen observes and make the changes for the client.

Suddenly I feel so redundant... I talk too much, ask too many question, increases the blood pressure of the client, give tactless answer to question. I harass with my emails on "bad code" etc. I overstay my welcome in the office after 6pm (the logic goes that since I am doing the same thing at home, I might as well stay in the office, do it finish and then go home without bring back the laptop. Moreover I am already so slow, so far behind ...)

it's new year again, another lonely day. On a scale of 1 to 10:
work-4
social life - zero
relationship - zero
family - 4
money - (-74000)
health - 4 (struggling to get well from cough)
game - zero (have not played any RTS for quite sometime)
(not to scale)

what is affecting me the most now, I guessed is maintaining a positive attitude on having a girlfriend. zero2hero theory. I am a decelerator, no matter how hard I work, the result will just be the same (not exceeding the baseline), but if i just relax slightly, the great deceleration take place. haiz...